The Tribulations of John
You imagine what it must be like to have someone to talk to at this very moment. It feels like a strange thought, and you suddenly realize it’s not something you’ve felt before, the sudden need for another person.
Author: Kelvin Paschal
A student who loves education & technology, Experienced with computers and software.
I'm trying to understand intelligence, most of what I read and do are in the fields of Deep reinforcement Learning and Computational Neuroscience.
I like Psychology, Economics, Physics, Mathematics, and Philosophy.
What is Enjoyment?
Enjoyment is such an ambiguous word, for someone, it could mean eating a delicious cake, while for another person that might be the norm, like eating breakfast cereal.
Unformed Thoughts on Death, Aliveness and Eternal Life
Everything I do is a subtle preparation of when I’ll die. I’m obsessed with “Eternal Life” even though I know I’ll never get this. What I can try to do is create my presence even when I’m not here. Sometimes who you are to people is just the idea of you. So If I can… Continue reading Unformed Thoughts on Death, Aliveness and Eternal Life
Touch and other good things
I gripped her thighs and drew my fingers in an orderly fashion close to the vulva. Most times the facial expressions are what I aim for, the way her face changes to welcome the sudden yet subtle rush of pleasure. I asked Olivia, “Why does it feel so good?” Of course, I knew that was… Continue reading Touch and other good things
Irrelevant Narrations -The problem with physical touch.
I hugged a girl once and I felt really close, I felt so close but didn’t quite feel “close enough”. (One of Zeno’s paradox comes to mind) I didn’t feel close enough because the problem was I wish I could be inside her, this doesn’t have anything to do with sex, touch just wasn’t enough… Continue reading Irrelevant Narrations -The problem with physical touch.
Questions on Human Languages
Something strikes me as important and mysterious at the same time and that’s languages. For the most part, the species who have evolved to communicate vocally through languages are humans, thanks to our large brains. Although I wouldn’t just attribute all that to our large brains, because there are other species with larger brains who… Continue reading Questions on Human Languages
Brief thought on Nature
Anything that is not allowed by nature will actually not happen in the first place. So if you see something and say that “This is against nature” or “This is not natural”, that shows your limited understanding of how nature works. This also applies to how people live their lives, the fact that you think… Continue reading Brief thought on Nature
Brief Meditation on Mediations – Part 3
There was a session where Sam Harris told us to cast our minds back to a time where we felt emotion or sensation strongly, this emotion could either be good or bad. Here’s the task: Try to look back at some point in your life where you were either really sad, worried, fearful, happy, excited,… Continue reading Brief Meditation on Mediations – Part 3
Brief Meditation on Meditations – Part 2
In mediation yesterday, Sam Harris (the instructor on Waking Up) said we should simulate a particular scenario and see how it feels like. This was particularly hard for me and I’m guessing it’ll be the same for a large proportion of people out there, even though I’ve been meditating since last year it was so… Continue reading Brief Meditation on Meditations – Part 2
Rants & Musings
Somehow all I can remember now is how my primary school teacher explained Newton’s first law. Newton’s 1st law is not something they teach you in primary school but somehow he did. Remember this poem, “Old Roger is Dead”? In case you don’t, here’s the poem: Old Roger is dead and gone to his grave,… Continue reading Rants & Musings
Tech. vs Arts 